Today was the last time my school had our free period (called “Learn”) for the rest of the year. Ironically, I spent it in my Algebra class! Going back to the beginning of the year, I was very resentful of that class and only enjoyed it because I was able to sit next to my best friend. Once she left the class however, Algebra was the low point of my day. It still sort of is, but no longer am I surly when I enter the classroom; instead, I come with a more positive attitude centered on learning.
This is similar to my walk with God. Often times, such as when I’m with Christian friends or at camp, I feel like God is blessing me left and right and really using my life for His will. But when I’m sitting in my room scrolling through whatever, I get annoyed at God often because He’s not working in my life. Really though, it’s my fault. I’m the one not devoting all my time to Him. I’m the one not praying or journaling every night. I’m the one ignoring Him. Somehow, I need to concrete my devotion to Him so that I can grow. He’s already there waiting for me, I just need to catch up.