Today, I wrote most of my thoughts down in my journal, so I think I’ll just type them up for all the world to see.
“I feel useless. Extremely useless. I’m doing nothing with my life! I feel like I really don’t understand myself. What I want to do/be. What I’m supposed to do/be. I’m a sad butterfly stuck in the mud. Not sure how to get out. I want to continue to grow, but I want to do something in the meantime. I get that God loves me. I really do. I’m all dressed up with no where to go. What should I do? I fail at making music. My artwork isn’t the best. Homework is boring. That leaves climbing trees. And cleaning my room. Maybe I could write some more on my stories. Not that they’re any good. I need to get out of this house. I feel too comfortable. And I eat too much food. One of my meals could probably feed a whole family somewhere else in the world. I feel so priviledged, and I want to give it away and share, but I can’t. I don’t know how. I feel stupid because I can’t do anything with my life.”
Yup. That’s my pitiful, depressing view on life right now. Sorry if it wasn’t interesting. I just needed to get it all out.
One last note. If anyone is at all interested, I made an ask.fm account. Feel free to ask me any questions! http://ask.fm/themessybun