Wow, it’s been a while since I last posted, but even though a lot has happened in my life, I’m not going to dwell on that. The past is the past. The future is the future. The present is now. And that motto is something my stubborn brain is starting to comprehend. I’ve been feeling down and struggling to reach the surface of the water I’m drowning in. Sure, I’ve fallen a little, okay a lot, from God, but I can’t change the past, only look optimistically towards the future. That’s what I’m writing about today. A change that I’m going to try to enforce into my life.
Lately, I’ve been feeling stuck. Like after the amazing few months where I was with God and zooming forward in His plan, all of a sudden He just dropped me in some mud. But I know that He will not do that. Ever. So the problem must be me. He’s probably up there saying, “Abby, come on. I’ve got this great plan for you! Hurry up!” And just because I don’t see His plan, I’m just sitting in the mud. Today though, I decided that I was going to step forward. Literally. Sometimes mental encouragement doesn’t work so well with me. I get distracted, discouraged, or depressed. The solution? So something physical that everyone can see. Just like a baptism. What I’m doing publicly shows the change I am willing and trying to make.
This change only involves two things. Tape and a marker. What I did was write what I’m trying to overcome on the tape with the marker; stick the tape on the floor and then step forward. It’s behind me now. Hopefully every time I look at the pictures or remember in my mind what I did, it will encourage me to get up off my bed and change the world. I believe that it can. With God’s help, I know that I can.